★02-12-2025★

I AM STILL ALIVE!!!!

Made an attempt. Won't go into detail for obvious reasons but obvs survived I did. Honestly kinda happy rn??? Like the staff all listen and take you seriously, it's barely been hard to even get a different issue checked out. So rheum here I come! But yeah, relearning shit. Many funny stories from when I was tripping balls on drugs. Apparently woke up and chose violence initially so had to ne resedated. Bit a nurse, punched a doctor. Hallucinated people in the fire alarms that spoke to me. All kinds of fun stuff. Though in my drug induceed haze I fully dreamt up a nightwing movie trailer that looked sick af so sad it turned out to ne not real. Oh, and a Superman VR game. Seem to be having a DC moment

But I cannot believe I missed the greatest Chapel Roan look yet. I mena the red teeth???? STUNNING. Everything I want to be and more. But yeah. Don't try suicide. Hospital food SUCKS ass.

In other news, I will be dropping out of uni. I cannot anymore. Hoping to find something fun to do. RHPS shadow cast I did really ignited the theatre lover in me so...also might do drag. Idk. Lady Little Death is the working title.

06-11-2025

I AM ALIVE!!!!

Sorry got so fucking busy, my lord. A summary of my past month: NHS is useless (what's new /s), I've been roped into a new society because everyone thinks I'm in the exec - I'm NOT but honestly I might as well at this point lol. Oh this is Drag Soc btw. Cause gay. But yes, we did a Rocky Horror Picture Show shadow cast, I played Magenta and it was so fun omg. Already planning on making it a yearly event. ALSO a girl in the audience started flirting with me this past week. Who said lesbians are useless???? >:3

But yeah. Will get back to this site, I swear. Goddamn AuDHD brain keeps collecting new hobbies.

26-09-2025

I come back, wtf has happened to my nice imagessss omg. I can't (＿　＿)

24-09-2025

I come back and suddenly people are following me /ᐠ｡ꞈ｡ᐟ\ Hi everyone I guess!

Currently about 1/3 of the way through the trans flag blanket thingy, am ignoring the fact that I had to mix ivory and white cause there wasn't enough of one...it's ok, I can deal with it...No perfectionism here.....Anyway, it's been really fun so far. Surprisingly my joints have been cooperating for the most part. Nothing else really happening, still in the run up to uni starting up again. I've got a few events first thing next week as I'm a part of one society exec and we need to welcome the freshers. It should be fun - just simple coffee meetups, arts and crafts, that kinda thing. The SU is running some club nights but idk if I'll go. I mean, I've gone clubbing before, but the DJs they hire are...questionable sometimes. Especially when it's specifically ment to be a queer event. Like at least try to hire someone who'll actually cater to the people present. But then again they've also been using AI art in some of their ads soooo the bar is on the fucking floor (no really, they did. for POC events especially to be extra insulting. god forbid we hire actual artists).

Anyway, going to come back later on today (hopefully) to continue updating the site. Got a few ideas cooking but trying to not get too ambitious given my coding abilities. Also trying to make a site button! No I have no idea how to animate so it'll probably be just an image. But still :]

19-09-2025

AAAAAAAAAA Ignore the random updates, I'm definitely not overcomplicating everything...Anyway, I'm at the tail end of a horrid cold so the brain's more loopy than usual. Truely, no better time to teach myself coding. And crochet apparently. Yeah found some supplies while doing a weekly shop so may or may not make something. Current hope is making a trans flag cause prettyyyyy but let's see if the arthritis cooperates. I think a hand made pride flag would be fun - I mean, the originals were made by hand, plus it adds character. I was slowly gathering stuff for a patchwork one, but the crochet one would be soft and fluffy, so the autism demands it.

Feel the need to say I've got Ritual playing while typing this. Very funny to have a demonic voice saying a satanic Lord's prayer while talking about making a cute fluffy pride flag. On that note, yes most of this cutesy pastel site has been made with Ghost playing in the background. Also I've been dressed like a consumption-riddled Victorian ingénue because I want to feel nice but don't have the energy for proper clothing. Flowy nightgowns it is! Back to definitely not crying over things not working. I have a rainbow duck in the flat somewhere I can debug with...